Tuesday, June 5, 2007

  

Things of mine to see:

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I'm at a loss. There are several things that I want to get with my money and one thing I really 'oughtta do with it. Here's my options. Listed first is what I should do but don't want to, and then everything else, ranked by how much I really think I want/need it.

• Open a checking account and deposit money. Save.
• RedOctane "Afterburner" metal DDR pad ($250)
• Panasonic Lumix DMC-FZ8S/K ($350)
• Gateway 17" 720p HD LCD Monitor ($200)
• Nintendo Wii ($250)

Now, the same list, ranked by how fun it is:

• RedOctane "Afterburner" metal DDR pad ($250)
• Panasonic Lumix DMC-FZ8S/K ($350)
• Nintendo Wii ($250)
• Gateway 17" 720p HD LCD Monitor ($200)
• Open a checking account and deposit money. Save.

Yeah. There we go. And yes, I'd play DDR more than I'd take pictures, I'd take pictures more than play Wii, I'd play Wii more than use the computer, and I'd rather use the computer than open a checking account and save my money. That's a sad state of affairs, eh?

As for what I did today... I READ A BOOK!! I know, so unusual! I started reading Tiger Eyes by Judy Blume. I just found it and I was like Sure, why not? So now, I'm reading a book. And I played DDR for about an hour... I love DDR... SO ADDICTIVE! They need a DDR Addicts Anonymous group... But then it's not really bad for you like drugs or alcohol...

I'm almost caught up with typing chapter 7 of my story. Then I need to link chapter 6 into chapter 7 properly and I'll call it good for a little while. But I still have to write other things, because I have made a claim that I will submit 15 or more useful deviations to dA this month, like I said last time, but this time I hope I can actually do it. I have to write them all new, because there is nothing lying around to submit, as far as I'm aware. (I so could have just used a pun there...)

On to personalness, I felt exceptionally -- I call it this -- shifty. Also it felt as though I was riding some sort of depressed high, because I was a little more depressed than usual and I was more energetic and productive than the past couple of weeks. I hope I feel like this on Thursday during the entire day, because maybe I'll do well in piano lesson, and then maybe I can finish what I'm doing as far as my writing site thing and the story typing. But I digress.

Boring detail and confusion follow. Please read at your own risk.

It seems that since I have been staying up later at night again, I haven't been as shifty during the day but rather have strong ph-shifts and that feeling that....well... I don't know how to describe it. It's almost like a mental shift, but I for a while had thought that I lacked a human component upstairs, but maybe I still have a human consciousness as well as my wolf consciousness. I don't know how I can tell, but that must be it, because how else could I have mental shifts, if that's what these are?

I never realized how much of a misanthrope I can be sometimes. If I'm in a really bad mood with a really good shift, I will sit there thinking to myself, I wish the human race would just die out. I hate them so. The funny thing is, that means I would essentially be friendless! I just never realized I hated people so much sometimes.

It's really hard to talk about this and make sense, because it's so hard for me to put to words or even understand myself. Not to mention that so few people know and understand what I'm talking about... You know, the 13 letter T-word. How many people really know that word? A lot of my friends do now, since I told them about it, but before I came along, they had no idea that the word existed or what it meant.

Well, enough of a peek at my headworkings. Sorry my head kinda spilled open for a bit there. It's not so much a bad thing, but it can be disturbing in strange -- not dirty -- ways at times.

*glad he's not triskaidekaphobic, howls*
I loves gettin mah honour from my lockwolfs.

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